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Where are you and what are you doing?
I am trying to figure out how to kill myself and not feel the pain.
Finally my spirit said loud and clear to me that this is the right time and I asked Luna if she wanted to come live with me, I would put her on a train today if she wants to come. She said yes. A week later I picked up Luna from the train station. She looked sad, lonely lost and as if she had not slept in years, even though according to our phone conversation while she was still on train she was sleeping 10 to 12 hrs a day. When I greeted her and gave her hug I could see in her eyes a spark of hope. The first week she was hear went by so fast and consume us with work and working on our first short film, so the elephant in the room, stayed in the room. I continued to pray about how and when to bring it up. Finally a break through or a nightmare, as I thought it was at first. My mom gave Luna some tough love ( Tough love does not work on everybody)
Pray before you attempt to help anyone, you may not be vessel or lighthouse they need.
Boy, was I wrong it was not a nightmare, My mother Annie was the lighthouse or the vessel Luna needed. I will not go into their private conversation, but the very next week Luna got her self sign up for a 8 week intensive counseling sessions at church. She work diligent during those eight weeks and sometime in between the 8 weeks she asked me for help as well. At this time I was about 9 months into my training in Alternative medicine, Luna knew this so she asked me to help her find something for her mood and something to help her sleep. After talking to Luna for several days about past and present medical history and in depth personality questionnaire, her and I together began to do our research. What we both thought would be best for her is one St. John wort every other day and a small dosage of Melatonin at night. After she did some more of her own research she decide to start taking the St.John Wort and Melatonin and by the end of the first week her mood was more balance and she was having less suicidal thoughts. Falling asleep was becoming easier and she was starting to wake up around 10 or 11 am instead of the normal 5 or 6 pm.
After a couple of months on the St. Johns Wort, Melatonin, and the continue counseling she was able to start working on a more healthy relationship with food. She started to realize that her unhealthy relationship with food was also contributing to her depression. She started to realize that certain foods would elevated her depression and others would help alleviate her depression. So with this knowledge we together began to work on this, I would hold her accountable and point out to her when she might be possible slipping into what we called “Depression eating” ( this method of accountability helps Luna, it may not help you. Do your own research/ trail and error)
Jump to the present time, three years later Luna is doing wonderful and she is thriving. She is writing a book, creating three different interactive stories on the Episode Interactive Platform, her and I started our film company Lady Girl Films and just produced our first film, she has gotten back in to acting and is currently working and booking roles out of Savannah and Atlanta. Her most recent film you can see her in is Some Freaks and several other films coming out ( Check her IMDB profile to see a list of her films, you can find her under LUNA MUNROE) . She has also start taking photos again, now does Luna still have depression, yes I don’t know if you ever get “RID” of depression but it is under control. Right now Luna only takes Melatonin 3 to 4 days a week and the St. John Wort when she feels depression coming on, she pays attention to her moods and eating pattern.
Peace* Breathe* Explore*
Hope this helps someone in some way. This is my first time writing this way… telling someone story, I hope inspires someone!
NOW BELOW ARE NOT BEFORE AND AFTER WEIGHT LOSS PHOTOS ( WE DON’T BELIEVE IN THOSE AND WE FEEL THAT JUST FEEDS INTO THE MEDIAS BULLS*** OF WHO IS BEAUTIFUL, WHAT BODY TYPE IS MOST BEAUTIFUL AND WHAT SKIN TONE IS MOST DESIRABLE OR NOT, I BELIEVE THAT EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL AND WHO ARE WE TO JUDGE WHAT IS NATURAL TO SOMEONE OTHER THEN OURSELVES.)
These are before after photos of Luna when her depression was out of control and she was having suicidal thoughts everyday and present day photos of her now with her depression under control. This was not easy for her and she worked very hard to be aware and one with herself and needs.
I will also post a list below of foods the elevated her depression and foods that alleviate her depression.
Photos ( please don’t take without permission)
3 years ago depression out of control
Present day (3 years of hard work) Depression under control
Photo Luna recently snap on one of our hikes!
Elevated Luna Depression Foods
- Lots of added sugar
- Over consumption of fast food
- Over consumption chocolate Example: Reese peanut cups etc…
- Lots of Refined carbohydrates
- Over consumption of Processed foods
Alleviate Luna Depression Foods
- Leafy green vegetables
- Making sure to stay well hydrated
(These are just sample list)
***** SIDE NOTES*****
Well Melatonin is a natural helpful sleep aid, there can be side effects such as;
( Do your own research as well)
St. John Wort is helpful for depression, there can have side effects
- Allergic reactions
- Increased blood pressure
- Increased sensitivity to the sun — especially if you are fair-skinned and taking large doses
- Upset stomach
Don’t use if pregnant.